So, why am I acting like this? I don't know either. I realized, I seem to have this habit of hurting others. With words, okay? Hey, I'm not a fan of violence either. Okay, back to the question. I wonder why am I like this, really. I tend to do that to people who are really important to me. Well, they did nothing wrong actually. It's my own problem on how I deal with things. To be frank, I did something like that again today. This person is the second one already. And I'm feeling dead miserable now. Pfft. 

I said mean things, I mean, really really mean things. Sometimes I feel so distant with myself. Like, I don't even know who I was when I said all those words. Woah, the dark side. I think they have cookies for me. LOL. 

What am I crapping here. 

Well, I don't know what I'm supposed to do now. I just added a super large tank of oil onto the already burning house. I bet the house is gonna fall apart soon, which I hope that day will never come.

Seriously, it's a waste that I messed up the whole thing. That person was such a great friend. We had so many things in common, and I really enjoyed that person's company. But, ever since that day, I felt really awkward when I was talking to that person. I don't even dare to look at that person anymore. And now, this had to happen. I really should have just kept my mouth shut next time. 

Actually, I forgot what was the root of the problem. Short-term memory, I guess? No, it's freaking amnesia! LOL. Really, how did it even end up this way. Aww, really, I feel so bad right now. What should I do, really.

But then, thank god it's holidays now. At least I don't need to let everyone see how miserable I look. Ugh. I should really sort this problem out as soon as possible before anything bad happens.

Signing out, 

bitch. LOL. :x